That’s the title, anyway — of the last section of Book II of the Cosmotheandric Trilogy.
After 300 pages, this had better be good.
You’ll have to settle for plausible. I’m breaking the material up into several parts, also editing it for the first but not last time, so it’s a work in progress. Sections may also need to be rearranged in the final draft.
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Way back in the Introduction, we said This about That, or rather, about the ontological distinction between This and That. This distinction
is not always kept clear in Western circles: that there is God and there is our speech — dogmas, doctrines, symbolic representations — about God, and two don’t always harmonize. The Bible, for example, is not the voice of God but that of the man who encounters him. Thus it is about God, and one of the rules of cosmotheandrism is that it is the moon that counts, not the lunatic pointing at it.
Of the subject of revelation, we said that
although it will at times appear in these pages, we will not be granting it automatic authority, rather, we agree with Berdyaev that “no religion stands on a higher level than truth,” or in other words, do not confuse any religion with that to which it points. And if it doesn’t point to truth, I fail to see the point.
In other words, supposing it is what it purports to be, then revelation reveals — or ought to, at any rate — Big Truth. For example, one such Truth, according to Rabbi Moses — whom they say encountered God — is that the Theos wishes to be known as I am that I am, which can be variously translated as I am who am, I will be what I will be, or even I will become what I choose to become.
However, adding the I to the AM implies that being is personal — that it has a subjective — and therefore intersubjective — interiority. And this personhood is free from necessity, as implied in the last version, i.e., choose to become.
But to whom is God speaking? In this case to Moses, with whom he has a relationship, but by extension to all of us, for this is not the kind of thing one keeps to oneself. In fact, we could know nothing of God if he weren’t a priori related to us. Nor could we know anything at all if there weren’t a relationship between knowing and being, which is to say, between I Am and It Is (and You Are).
But we do know being, and if the Theos is the unrestricted act of being, this implies that in any act of knowing we know the Theos, even if only an itsy bitsy. This was Aquinas’ opinion, and why not? An explicit finite truth points toward, and is related to, the implicit infinite source of Truth; our very ability to know and understand is a participation in the divine intellect.
Facts may be stubborn, but principles are positively intransigent, one such principle being that no amount of objects adds up to a subject, much less a personal one. Which goes to our final Axiom, which we might call primordial and irreducible Personhood:
Truth and Person. Just try to talk about one without the other. Only persons can be involved with truth, and truth can only be known by a person. This is the ultimate axiom that accounts for all the others, as it is certain, intelligent, creative, complementary, open, interior, dynamic, free, and the only intellectually consistent and complete One Free Miracle that accounts for all the others. To circle back to our first Axiom, the Person himself partakes of both Absolute and Infinite, and is the prior unity of both. The Person is also the last word in intersubjective relationality, for “Relation,” writes Ratzinger, “is not something superadded to the person, but it is the person itself. In its nature, the person exists only as relation.”
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As said at the very outset of this book, one can reason upward from the objects of experience to their ultimate principle, which Clarke calls the cosmic or outer path, as exemplified (for example) by Aquinas’ five ways. Alternatively, one can begin by “exploring the depths of our own inner conscious life to find God as the Ultimate Goal of one’s inner drive toward the fullness of Truth....”
Instead of proceeding from down to up and outside in, try looking from the top down and inside out?
Yes, let’s look into path #2, because it explores the concept of meaning in an open Cosmos with an indeterminate future. Thus, it is the absence of a predetermined outcome that facilitates the very possibility of meaning.
In our restless engagement with the limitless horizon of being, any finite, limited, determinate truth only causes us to “rebound beyond it and search for more”: the intellect is such that it “can never be completely satisfied or fulfilled by any finite being or good.” Rather,
I must always implicitly refer each one to a wider, richer horizon beyond, to which I then spontaneously tend. It follows that only an unqualified infinity, or unlimited fullness of being and goodness could ever satisfy this innate drive.... my very nature as a human person is to be an ineradicable implicit drive toward the Infinite [AKA O] (Clarke).
While there is no possibility of meaning if the dynamism of the intellect isn’t ordered to the Absolute, it seems that the meaning is located more in the vertical quest than in the finding per se, since we could never actually arrive at this end, only engage with it.
Now, could an endless series of finites be sufficient to satisfy our drive for the Infinite? No, because this would be a caricature of infinitude, just an endless series of finites, so “there would still remain a deep unfilled void within us, a radical emptiness that nothing could ever fill” (ibid.).
In other words, Infinitude or nothing. Literally. But it is nevertheless a choice, since we are of course free: “Either there exists a positive Infinite Fullness of being..., which is somehow possible to be attained by me,” in which case -- good news -- “my human nature becomes luminously and completely meaningful, intelligible, [and] sense-making.”
Alternatively — and again, in an indeterminate Cosmos there is no alternative to alternatives —
there exists no such real Infinite at all. And then my nature conceals in its depth a radical defect of meaningfulness, of coherence, an unfillable void of unintelligibility, a kind of tragic emptiness; a natural desire that defines my nature as a dynamic unity, but is in principle unfulfillable, incurably frustrated, a “useless passion”..., oriented by its very nature toward a non-existent void, toward nothing real, kept going only by an ineradicable illusion.
When you put it that way, it doesn’t seem like much of a choice.
“Thus, either God exists or I am absurd: that is the basic option that confronts me, if I am willing to go to the depth of the human condition” (ibid).
However, this choice of choices of course assumes the freedom to make it, and where does the freedom come from? Clarke suggests that “there is a lived contradiction between affirming theoretically that the universe or myself is unintelligible and continuing to live and use my mind as though it were intelligible.”
Therefore, “it is finally up to each one of us either to accept his or her infinite-oriented nature as meaningful and revelatory of the real or as an opaque, illusory surd.” Having said that,
what good reason can one have for choosing darkness over light, illusion over meaning, for not choosing the light? Only if the darkness is more intelligible? But this does not make sense! Why not then accept my nature as meaningful gift, pointing the way to what is, rather than to what is not?
G3AOA, maybe? For that particular text relates the timeless tale — some might call it a repetition compulsion — of choosing relative over Absolute, appearances over reality, illusion over meaning, but even more deeply, it is rejecting the prior truth that to be is to be in relation, in particular, in relation to an infinite Theos who is himself relational, both internally and externally, the latter by way of creation.
Clarke points out that “there is no knowledge more useless than to know all the future now,” since we couldn’t do a thing about it. It would turn even God into a passive witness of his own creation, nor could he “exercise any providence at all, since everything would already be unchangeably fixed without his active cooperation with us that can only be in a real now.”
The real now. Not to go all hippie-dippie or dopie-Chopra on you, but there is something awfully weird about the now. It is so fleeting, and yet only it has the fullness of reality, or is fully real. The past, to be sure, is -- or was -- real, but it is clearly lacking something. Those of you who have tried to live in the past will know what I mean.
Nor does it make sense to live for the future only, because only when we arrive there is it real, and if you haven’t learned to live in the Real Now now, what makes you think you’ll be able to do so then? Not to criticize people for prudential planning, but taken to an extreme it can be a way to avoid and flee from the existential reality of the present.
It seems we should adopt a more moderate stance: live a little bit in the past and future, but mostly in the now. For my part, the older I get, it seems that it works the other way around: my primary means of escaping the ever-shortening future is to burrow down into the now, which is the location — the safe space — from which this book is being written. Nevertheless, the older we are, the nearer the end.
Act now before offer expires!
Clarke goes on to say that
God can know what will happen to you only if he first takes the risk of creating you and working with you all the way through to the end, trying to steer you in the right direction, but with the final outcome determined only by your last free choices at the end, to which God himself is always present, but only in the immanent order in which they actually occur existentially.
So, life is a gamble. But is God the “Ultimate Cosmic Gambler”? Understood properly, “Yes -- but also an infinitely skilled player at the game!”
I once played chess with Death.
Yes, but that was no doubt only two-dimensional. Conversely, God plays hyperdimensional chess.








